||[Jul. 1st, 2013|04:00 pm]
Monday, July 1. First day of the week and first day of the month. Good time to start setting goals. So here goes. I want to loose 12 lbs. by the end of the month. I have never set an actual goal before, I have just arbitrarily tried to "eat better" and "work out". but now I have an actual goal. I started off horribly by eating muffins for breakfast and having a cc cookie with lunch. But then I went on a run, so that has to even out, right?|
Really I just want to be in better shape. I have this desire to be in the best shape ever before I give it all up for a second child. I was in the best shape thus far right before I got pregnant with Nate. I am almost in that shape now, not counting the C-section scar and the stretch marks which will never go away. I want to surpass that.
Speaking of second child, I have gone round and round about it. (By the way, if anyone still reads this thing, don't tell Jonny my thoughts) I have finally come to the horrible conclusion that maybe I only want one for Nate and Jonny. Yes, babies are cute and cuddly, but I already have one. Another one would just be for Nate's benefit of not being an only child.
Then again I can't decide if I am just telling myself this so that I won't feel guilty about wanting another one when I already have Nate?
The cousin is coming around Christmas, and sister-in-law is telling me to get busy. Nate LOVED having the cousins here, but they are older, a baby would be a whole different story.
Ugh, I just don't know. We started trying for Nate on my Birthday, so I thought maybe we could start trying for number 2 on Jonny's birthday? I still am not totally sold though. Jonny says he wants another. But can we afford it? We have to pay for Jonny and Nate to go to school. and we would have to fix up that 2nd bedroom and everything. Well, we shall see.